Taking Care of Buisness

Right now I am sitting in bed with my dog, Tina. My thoughts, as usual, are a bit all over the place, so I apologise in advance.

I am trying to buy a new car. I have done more research over the past four months than any human being should to buy a friggin car. Stefan has been tremendously helpful in this process. Since my previous little Ford Escort is on car heaven, I have been schleped around by Stefan and my mom. Though I appreciate it very much, I am going to go crazy if I don't get my own vehicle soon. I am sure it will happen, but I am just getting frustrated.

My mom actually hurt herself working out at the gym last week, and she had to go to the hospital last night because she was in so much pain. Of course, she did not call me to tell me any of this, so I was completely clueless until about 8:00 this evening. I wish that she would've called me, because I would've gladly taken care of her today.

The frustrating thing is that I feel like I am not really sure about the future. With the economy the way it is, I am not sure how easy it would be keep my job. My dad who's the best thing to ever happen to the company he works for, may kick him out on his butt. We don't know. I am very concerned with the way things are going right now. When the economy goes down, child abuse goes up. So does domestic violence, and gang activity. But, service workers, such as police and fire fighters, lose their jobs very quickly. It was really dumb for them to pass that damn Amendment 1. I know that everyone wants to pay less on their property taxes. I get it. But, when you pay less in property taxes, you also run the risk of nobody showing up when your house is on fire. Paradoxes everywhere.

The only good thing in my life right now is Stefan. He really makes it easy for me to be okay with things. I don't worry as much when I am with him, and he doesn't have grand expectations of me either.

Maybe in the morning, things will get better, but for now, I must sleep. What I know so far, is that life is one big Catch-22, and you'd better learn to be a good decider or else.

Love and Needs,
Mimi