A Piece of My Mind

So this is what is on my mind this evening.

Stefan took Bryan and me to see the movie "Happy Feet". It was AWESOME! Very sad at times, and it would make you want to cry, but really it is a very wonderful piece of animation. Everyone can enjoy it, no matter how old you are. I will say that there is more of a religious undertone than that of an enviromental view. But the primary message was that you have to embrace your own uniqueness, as well as those of others. If anything, see this movie for the spectacular animation. There are times that you'd think they filmed it in Antartica, with actual scenes of penguins.

The other thing on my mind is a website that I joined a while back called SuperViva.com . The premise is to allow people to create life goals for free, and to inspire you to fulfill them. I joined because I have so many things I'd like to achieve, but I would forget about them. Thus, I would never PLAN to do the things that I want to do. Now, this is not to say that I am currently figuring out ways to see the 7 wonders of the world, but I do have it on my list. Would you like to know some of the things on MY list? Well, I'm in the mood to share:
(keep in mind that these are in no particular order)
1.)see the aurora borealis
2.)learn to bellydance
3.)have a gallery show of my artwork
4.)have pink hair
5.)Learn to speak slovak
6.)only borrow books from the library for 1 year.
7.)own a veggie fuel car
8.)take a glass blowing class
9.)See the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade in person
10.)acquire a diverse and eccentric hat collection
11.)have a piece of my artwork displayed in the Smithsonian
12.)finish my self-portrait
13.)visit Amsterdam (no, not for the reason you're thinking)
14.)create and follow a budget
15.)have my palm read
16.)have sleep sex
17.)take a pole-dancing class (I hear it's great for your upper body)
18.)take a 40 day self-renewal retreat
19.)own all the films that make me happy (I'm adding Happy Feet to my list)
20.)Have justice and peace

So those are just a taste of what's on my list. I am very quickly remembering more and more that I want to do as I write this...I'll be up for a while.

Some other things that are on my mind; 1.)the fact that I have to work tomarrow. (This was supposed to be my weekend off),2.)they should really make that intersection a four-way stop, 3.)I hope Stefan isn't freezing his ass off for that Wii thing, 4.) Is Target open on Thanksgiving?, 5.)the dog needs to sleep in bed with me tonite, or she's gonna get sick, 6.)I really don't want to go to school on Monday, 7.)I hope that I can fall asleep tonite.

Well kiddies, that's all for now. I hope they never come up with a way to project people's thoughts. No one would want to listen to the jibber-jabber that goes on in there.

Love and cranberry sauce,
Mimi

Love Letter

"You Love Me"
by Kimya Dawson

I moved around from town to town,
lots of people around but still so lonely.
Friendships would grow then I'd hit the road,
making up excuses for why I had to leave.
Always been to scared and unprepared
to let anybody get too close to me.
But when I met you, right away I knew,
that you'd never, ever, ever, hurt me.
And the road still long, and you come along,
and you hold my hand and you understand.
When I look at you I can't believe it's true,
you're all I've ever dreamed of
and you love me.


A love letter from me to you,

I love you so much, I feel like I could explode. When we met, I asked you if you wanted a lollipop, and you took one without looking at me. I was just happy that you said "sure". Then, when we sat alone in the design room behind Mrs.Davis' desk, in that little closet-of-a-room, I couldn't believe that I was sitting next to you. Thank god for bomb threats, huh?

Then our first date. I was ELATED when you asked me out. After a month of pursuing you, you finally got the nerve to ask me out. And our first date was at my cousin's house, which I think was sort-of perfect. I think you said it was the first time you had steak like that. And we went for a walk, and I told you I was lost, so that we could go back to the playground and sit on the swings. Our first kiss was no fairytale. We were both nervous, but you made up for it later.

We are two little bunnies. If there is anything about our relationship that I love the most, it is that I feel most like myself when I am with you. I feel safe, and loved, and wanted, and needed, and beautiful when I am with you. We have so much in common but we are so different. When I look into your eyes, I feel like I am looking at buried treasure. Your pretty brown eyes with lime-green rings, that sparkle when you smile. You are my best friend, and I can tell you anything, and you never once made me feel bad about it. There is an element of innocence in our relationship; a harmonious gleefulness that we share.

Everytime I lay down next to you, I think about the future. I want to be your little lady, your wife, your other half. I know you know that though. I want to give you a life where you can pull into the drive way of our little house, and know that you are going to get a kiss from me. I want to have a piggie, and a kitty, and some goldfishies. Then we could have some little kidlets, and take them to school every morning, and help them with their homework every night. I want to make you chicken salad sandwiches for lunch. I want to get wrinkly and old, and fat with you. I'm going to take care of you forever. When no one else is around, I'll be right next to you. I don't care if you never have a penny to your name, or more money than Oprah and Bill Gate combined. You will always have me when you need a shoulder to cry on, or person to laugh with, or a lover to kiss you on the neck in the middle of the night.

So when you read this, let me know. All I need is a hug and a big kiss. I love you, Stefan.

Your little baby bunny.

I am on fire.

"As long as I'm burning,
I'll keep on yearning
to save the world;
not sure how,
but I'm learning"
-kimya dawson


As most of you know, I used to go to the Child Protection Center (CPC) for therapy, and now I volunteer there since I have graduated the program. (If you didn't know, well now you do.)Well, you may also be aware of fact that I delivered a speech for CPC a long while back (I think in April) to a bunch of people in the community telling my story. Well four really great oppurtunities became available to me because of it. I will list them, cause that's easist to understand:

1.)Doug, a Sexual Abuse Treatment Program director, told me that he was asked to pass on a message from the State Attorney's Office. Every year in April (Child abuse prevention month), the State Attorney holds a candlelight vigil for Child Abuse victims. When they had a meeting about the vigil, the topic of who was going to speak was brought up. My name apparently came up in conversation, and the State Attorney's Office chose me to be the speaker for this year's event. Someone had apparently seen me speak at the Victor Veith thingie, and so now I am the prospective poster child for Abuse advocacy. What's great is that I could reach a lot of people with this.

2.)The second bit of info I got was that the manager at the local Barnes' and Noble is going to use my speech from the Victor Veith thingie for a fundraiser that will go towards the the Sexual Abuse Treatment Program. So...neat-o!

3.)The third bit of happy news I received was that one of the therapists for CPC, whom also teaches a Human Development and Wellness course at Webster college, asked if I could speak in one of her classes. I would need to call her and find out more, but I think I would be sort-of telling my story and then answer some questions. So that is really cool. Even more people to share my story with.

4.)And the last thing, which I purposefully saved for last. The therapist one of the groups at CPC has lost her cofacillitator (a person who is not a therapist, but has personal experience in sexual abuse). So, she thought that I would be a very good candidate to take the position. I am not 100% sure if it a paying position, but I think it is. Regardless, I am going to carefully consider it. The girls of the group have a very strong intrest in art, and are always doing projects. They all think I would be good for a cofacillitor position. I am not going to make a definate decision until after next week, but I am leaning toward yes. I would have a lot of support there, and I would not be in charge of the group. I would be there to say, "Hey, I know EXACTLY how you feel." So. Whew. It's a lot to take in, but I think I'm up to the challenge. I have wanted to be a cofacillitator for a long,long time.

I am still sort-of in shock. I don't know what to do with myself, really. I think I should just see how I feel.But for the most part, I am going to do everything. Perhaps this is why God made me change my mind on going to school next semster, so that I could do more for the cause. I would like for anyone who read this post to please comment on what you think about these oppurtunities, because I would like to know what you would do, say, feel, etc.

Thanks everyone!