A Long and Winding Road

I know I really haven't posted in a long time. It's been over a month, but I'm trying really hard to figure some stuff out right now.
Here's a list to make it easier to understand my situation:

1.)How to get all the work done for my online P.E. class when I have a crappy computer.
2.)Living in a pig pen, but having no time to clean up my mess.
3.)Working. They keep messing up my schedule, and it's getting to me.
4.)Trying to figure out what I want to do with my life (which I'll elaborate on later.)
5.)Doing assignments for school when, again, I have a crappy computer and no time
6.)Going to group (it's only minor issues there)
7.)Driving. I hate it. I hate people.
8.)Trying to figure out what it is I LOVE... not easy when you're uninspired
9.)Regaining my lost creativity and talent. One of the hardest things on this list
10.)Getting my biological clock to stop ticking every time I look at a friggin' kid!
11.)Figuring out a way to be as uniquely me as I possibly can.

Things are much better right now than they were a couple weeks ago. At let I'm feeling not so passionate today as I was. Some mornings I feel like just crying. But I'm working on contentment right now. Maybe when I go home today I'll call my teacher for P.E. class. I hate calling her because she keeps you on the friggin' phone for a good 20-30 minutes telling you to "stay on pace", "do your work", "you have to graduate on time"....Blah,blahBlah. She makes me itchy just thinking about her. Blech!

Anyway, I'm happy that Stefan and I got to spend some time together. I really loved going to the Main Street Bookshop, but I can't afford going there--I want EVERYTHING!
I want to explore some things. This summer I want to go to Selby a few times a month. I want to make some of my own clothes. I want to do everything I can possibly do this summer. I can't wait for graduation!

Anywhoo, I gotta get the assignment for P.E. ... sorry it's so soon ending!